Stupid guy. but quite funny. haha..

Last paper, Last paper, Let it be over....

SIEN... SIEN... SIEN...
Some people already finish exam and celebrating. I still have one more paper tomorrow. haih...
To add salt to wound, some of my previous papers are less than satisfactory. Sigh.. Hope that the adjustment will help to pull up mr grades a bit.

Exam Exam come come.. come to papa...

Photos from my phone.

For quite some time, cannot upload photos from my phone because my brother took away my blue tooth device for my desktop
Then, now I transfer it to PDA via bluetooth. then use cable to download from PDA to my desktop. One big round.

so here it is, this is the one that happen last year in my hall room. It crawled into my room. Tasty huh? (notice the size)

Handsome guy.. :P

My lil cousin sis, this taken lats year 19th september, her birthday. Now she taller and still so skinny.. haha

These, costs me S$40. Just tried them out just now. Wonderful workout I say. Though now only use half of the weights. Which is 2.5 lbs or 1.135 kg. Gonna increase as time goes by.

FIND THE WAY

This is a very nice song. The video is on Gundam Seed. If watched gundam seed before, the song mroe meaningful. But it is still nice without the video. Enjoy..

one, two; one, two; one, two;

suddenly have the urge to jog. they urge struck at around 9pm. Tried unsuccessfully to invite siew kee along too.

So I went on a solo mission. A mission that will never end.. until.... (answer known at the end)

Well, went jogging from my place to university. University is my best choice to jog. The reasons are:
1. Not many cars
2. Unbroken tracks for a long time
3. fresher air
4. a lot of trees around (no pinang tree... fortunately)
5. Well, who knows, you might get lucky and get a glimpse of chio bu or leng chai or even siao sports car.

The journey:
university, to hall 12,13; turn before NIE; align target to src; reach src; proceed to do 2.4km.

Of course, there are rests in between, else I will die long ago.
Sadly, my 2.4 can only do in 15 minutes.. sigh.. long gone the days of 12 minutes.

After that, thought of continue to do some sprints. Alas, my muscle failed me.. sigh... control of my legs are affected somewhat.. no choice, have to go back already.
The journey back was part walk, part jog.

Reached room at around 10.50pm. Gosh.. and I used the stairs.. no wonder I feel dead.. so dead.. Tomorrow will be a painful day.. wahahaha

Walk down the street

One fine wednesday night.
The breeze was cool after the rain.
I was happily walking back after buying bread.
As I pass by the food court, I noticed that there is some one laying down on the floor, opposite the food court.
I approach the person.
Initially, I thought that it must be some uncle sleeping on the floor.
Then when I was nearer, I noticed that it is a lady. Complete with hand bag and things that she bought.
I quicken my pace, thinking she may have fainted or sth.
Was wondering why is everybody avoiding her..
When I was about to reach her, I heard a loud sobbing sound from her.
out of my mind, images of people who are of not sound mind, flashes in my mind.
I had met some in the country, don't really want to meet more.
Hesitated whether to help or not.
Then, she slowly sat up.
Hm.. looks all fine to me. except that she is sobbing very loud now.
Walked pass the road.
Feel uneasy, decided to observe the lady to see if she will be ok.
She got up unsteadily, and started to walk.
The way she walk is not normal, like people who suffered stroke and recovered but with some effect on movement.
She sat down on stairs, took out handphone and make a call.
concluded that she was of sound mind, maybe just cannot get over her newly found "disability".
She cried for a while more, wipe away tears, got up.
Waited to cross the road, crossed the road and head towards Hdb flat.
That is when I decided to continue my walk back.

Sad world. firstly because there are people who have to suffer like that.
Secondly, of the people around the food court who just look at the whole incident like normal occurance.
thirdly, of those people who is watching free show, entertainment..
fourth, for my doubt in helping her... sigh....

Have you ever wonder

Here we are, studying like mad for exams. After that will be working hard to save money.

Then if lucky, meet suitable partner, get married, have family.

Then work even harder to feed more mouth and education of children.

Then after what seems like decade, children all grown up. They go to other place to study or work. Now all alone again. All the amount of time, effort and money invested in children, but they are leaving you.

Retire, if lucky go do some travelling.

Body failing, getting old.

Dead.

This, is still the more optimistic version. The main assumption is death don come anywhere in between. Come on, life should be more interesting and meaningful then this, no? Maybe because I have time to reflect after my grandpa passed away. I found out that, life is boring.

I think too much, and in the middle of exams.. haha.. ah well...

What about you? do you really know what you want? not just in the short term, but for your whole life. What do you want to achieve for the period that you are able to speak, work, travel....?

that feeling again

Yes, I am feeling it again
The feeling that will cause people to reduce effeciency.
The feeling that makes people to be in a lost of what to do.
The feeling that causes a person to be glum

All because of a movie that I watched.. haih...
the sad-love story.
korean movie 'a moment to remember'
Just great. Exams just 2 days away and I don feel like studying now..

I want to go jogging to forget that feeling. However, the slight pain from my right shoulder reminded me that I need to restrain from exercising.. haih.... I accidently pulled the muscle of my right shoulder. Not even sure how it happens. So there goes my most useful destressing method.

Well, of course I have other destressing method.
- ICE-CREAM!!!!! (got one whole box in fridge.. ok ok , maybe not whole anymore but still 80% left)
- read stories (quite effective if it is a good story. I can spend hours and hours on it, but not very wise when I am short of time, such as when exam period, which is......... now.....)
- Beer ( yes, beer. wierd thing is, beer also serves to make me awake. I thought it is the other way around. hm.. oh well, I never was normal.. hehe)
- listen to radio (starting to get bored of it since my favorite DJs are on vacation for 2 weeks.. sigh...)


trying to remember some parts of business law.. haha.. in this case, exemption clause.

Ah well, I supposed I should get back to study.. haih....

The girl that makes bone melt

joke from class 95 fm(adapted)

There was once a guy named William.

Since small, he was the person that teacher look for when they need students to help. They always say that he is the willing William. This is not so bad.

Then he joined the army and went for training. That is when his worst nightmare came...

During one live firing training, the instructor gave the command 'FIRE AT WILL!!!!'... and he fainted..

THE END

Exam coming SOON!!!!

Well maybe it is not so soon for some people but it is like half a month away only. The atmosphere is building up in school... Library extend opening hours, students studying so much tat I cannot find place to study in school = scary.

Oh well, the good thing is I got bored of world of warcraft. I always get bored of a game quite soon, and do not really feel like getting new game to play. ah well, more time to study and exercise then.

Oh ya, there is something about my house mate. One of them keep urinating on the seat cover. It is not so weird if it is a guy tat do that(well, guys with poor aim tend to do that), this however, is a girl. Damn her, make it so smelly. and the weird thing is, she pick the times that I will be first to use toilet after her, like when I have early class and she sleep late. ZZZZZzzzz......... I have no idea what she is doing. Meeting all kinds of interesting (aka weird) people.

And there is a girl who told me last week that her birthday was on monday. I chose to ignore that hint and now I have a new nick - 'irritating pig'. LOL. Wonder where that came from since I not really fat..

2nd funeral..

and counting..
Eventually, I will lost count of the number of funerals I attended.

I had a quiz on saturday afternoon. later in the evening, I received a call from father telling me to go to uncle's house. Uncle will fly back from KL and drive his family and me to KL on Sunday morning. It was said that Grandpa's condition is critical. All his organs are not fuctioning anymore. We were to go down and pay a visit to him maybe for the last time.

Sunday morning. After breakfast, we set off to KL from Singapore. We were not even out of Singapore when another telephone call came. Grandpa passed away... Not that it affect our plan very much cos everything was arranged and we were going back anyway. Yup, except that the intention now is different.

Grandma decided to have a lightning style of funeral. So on Sunday itself, people were called in to perform the rituals. The funeral was done according to taoist style.

We reached there in the late afternoon. Many ppl are there already, so too are my parents and my brother. The coffin is placed in front of the house and tents were built and extended to the road. There is a place on the side where offerings were being burnted
I was told to go cut my hair first because not allowed to cut hair for 3 months. So I went. After that, I bathed and changed into white cloths and black pants which was provided for by the funeral service ppl. I rested for a while in the room for the night is long.

In the evening, we take turns to eat dinner as some ppl must be present to continue doing the offerings and attend to ppl who came to pay last respect. Then, shifu (person who perform rituals), came. The immediate relatives gathered and we went into a series of kneeling, bowing, praying to different deity. I lost count of the number of times we performed the series of movement. this goes on from 7pm to past 3am with some small breaks in between. Along the way, some ppl cannot take it and have to drop out. The kids went to burning the offerings, while grandma just took a chair and sit down, observing the whole rituals. Kids slept at 12am.
The last of the rituals for the night is burning of paper car, paper house, paper servant, dead ppl's money, grandpa's clothes.... Initially we were holding hand in hand around the pile of offerings. But the fire prove too much for us and we have to stand much further back.

Then, the night ended.. most people went to sleep to get some rest before the rituals on monday. Sleep was near impossible for me. Went for walk, had tea with brother at 24 hours stall, continue burning offerings. lost count of time as we were not allowed to wear things like watch, necklance, earings..... later I slept for around 2 hours.

Morning came. Breakfast was ate hastily. Shifu came. Last respect was paid to grandpa. Some of grandpa's favorite things was put into the coffin. Coffin was sealed. Coffin was move out of the house compound. Prayers were offered. Coffined moved into coffin car. We boarded a bus to Tapah.
2 hours later...
reached Tapah, We came down of bus and walked behind the coffin car thru the town of Tapah.
Proceeded to burial grounds. Rested a while, have drink and some food. Coffin was lowered into the ground. Last rituals was performed. Each person took some soil and throw on top of coffin. We left without turning back...
Went to town of Tapah for lunch. Traveled back to House in seapark. Cleared the place of grandpa's belongings. offered jossstick to altar of grandpa. Went for dinner. All went for a good night's rest. THE END

All in all, everyone took it in stride. Including grandma. Everyone was expecting it to happen and have been prepared for it. However, some lost was felt from departure of grandpa.

Another funeral coming up

Well, it seems that I have to attend another funeral again. The signs are clear.... all the relatives are going back to visit in a rush, grandfather was not talking much when I met him 3 weeks ago. Now, he is hospitalized. Arrangements are being made..

gosh, I hate funerals. Yes I feel sad, but I don let it show. I have to be the one that is calm to be the driver. one good thing is that my grandfather had some good times...

I do not know why, but I suddenly remember what my grandfather told me few years back. He said:' If you have time, come back more often to see me, chit chat with me, eat roti canai with me. If you are busy with studies then nvm.' He was never demanding unlike those old folks we see in drama series. He is an understanding and independent person, which is a relieve to the relatives.
After that, I will go back to visit him with father whenever possible.

Sigh.. time pass very fast. I can still remember him working in a very crowded restaurant. Taking down orders of customers. The restaurant is not near.. he will take a bus himself or hitch a ride. He was the popular person there, customers look for him when they go there.

Then.. He had to sit down with customers to take orders. It appears that he is being friendly with customers, but the truth is he gets tire easily.

then.. he quited his job and stayed at home..till now..

Just a few days ago, he was happily playing candles with the 2 youngest grandchildren. Now, he is lying in hospital bed.. hahaha.. life is full of twist... life... sigh...

maths love letter

My Dear Love,

Yesterday, I was passing by your rectangular house in
trigonometric lane. There I saw you with your cute circular
face, conical nose and spherical eyes, standing in your
triangular garden.

Before seeing you, my heart was a null set, but when a
vector of magnitude (likeness) from your eyes at a
deviation of theta radians made a tangent to my heart,
it differentiated.

My love for you is a quadratic equation with real roots,
which only you can solve by making good binary relation
with me. The cosine of my love for you extends to infinity.
I promise that I should not resolve you into partial functions
but if I do so, you can integrate me by applying the limits
from zero to infinity.

You are as essential to me as an element to a set. The
geometry of my life revolves around your acute personality.
My love, if you do not meet me at parabola restaurant on
date 10 at sunset, when the sun is making an angle of
160 degrees, my heart would be like a solved polynomial
of degree 10. With love from your higher order derivatives
of maxima and minima, of an unknown function.

Yours ever loving,
Pythagoras


--
"Plum trees bloom,
Nightingales sing,
But I am alone."

pressured.. stupid

Gosh, I feel so stupid recently.. sigh... feeling so depressed and disappointed... to the extent of giving up..

When doing tutorials, I cannot do many questions. Even if I manage to do the questions, they turned up to be wrong. While my friends are always able to do the tutorials, able to ask questions that teacher like, able to follow the lecture well (still able to do other things during lecture).

My confidence have never been so tested. And up till now, it seems that I have failed the test. This will lead to failure of other tests.. like examination.. I know.. I know that I should pick up my confidence again. still trying.. sigh.. It is not helpful that there are ppl who wanna show that they are smart. and the tutor who thinks that every one is smart. It also does not help that parents just want me to pass exam, not excel..

Hope I can go thru this hard times...

Seduced-failure

Oh my god. Just some time ago, I was seduced!!!! well, maybe some will not believe it but wait till you read on....

Some time last week, I met with my group members to do project. (both of them are girls). when we were choosing the place to meet and do project, I suggested computer room, but they wanted to do it in one of their room at 9.30 am.
So on the day, I went to the block but did not go and knock on the room door as I was early. So I sent a msg to the girl to check if she is awake. She told me to just go to her room. So I went..
What greeted me was a line of bras that was hung outside the room. So I pretend not to see it.
then, I knock on the door, she answered. and.. apparently she just woke up (with wrinkled clothes and ruffled hair)
Then she went to wash face and brush teeth, asking me to use her laptop in the mean time. But she forgot to give me the pass word. So I was left bored in the room alone. In order to ease my boredom, my eyes roamed the room. My my.. more bras hanging in the room. ( I did not see them!!!!)

Then she came back and the other group member came. Project starts....


they started to get bored and chat about other things for a while. Then they came to 'how to cross legs'. And they start to demonstrate... and they were wearing extreme short pants..

Then they were lying around on bed also, I did not dare too look much cos short pants+lie on bed....

After that went for lunch, one of the girls drive. and there were stair case... and they walked in front... and when stairs are up slope... I am basically looking straight at their butt (their short pants just serves to show their butt shape, not cover it).

Then how about one of them coming near when I found some information on laptop.. and her long hair was... well.... tickling me....

some may think, I should be happy huh? sadly, they are not my type ( wanted to say they not pretty but then everyone's taste is different)

Well, I think my immuned system was put to test and I think I passed the test.

DrEaM gIrL

My Beautiful Girl,
Wherever you are,
I know when I saw you
You have opened the door
and now that I love again
until a long, long time
I love again....

I MET HER!!!! THE IDEAL GIRL !!!! (physically, have not have chance to get to know more)
oh, how my heart melts at the sight of her eyes. Those perfectly shaped eye brows. Those cute lips. Those fair skin with pink colours. Those expressions that form inside the eyes... All this in just...... 5 minutes?

Yes, just 5 minutes. I met her when I went back home last friday. After Singapore custom, I boarded a bus and sat down. Immediately, my eyes, my brain (contrary to believe, I have them), my heart, were glued to a girl sitting in the seat in front of me. And so I stare and stare and stare, not wanting to take my eyes off her for as long as I can. I just want to marvel in the beauty that nature created..

You know how time boards a ultra-super sonic aeroplane when you want it to go slow? damn the time... Damn the driver for driving so fast.. Damn the other cars for not jamming up the causeway!!!! ARGH!!!! reach JB custom liao.. sigh... with heavy hearts... I stood up and left... My heart and soul still lingering near her...

When I am a capable person.... when that days comes.. oh please come....

time of serious study

One year ago, I cannot imagine anyone being able to stay at library for hours and hours. I was thinking that library is a very boring place with nothing much in store for me. I can get whatever information that I want online and from text books.

However, all this change. I am not sure why, but now I go to library at least 3 times per week and each time is around 2 hours. I start to like the envorinment of library, esp Library 2. the air cond (NOTE: MAIN POINT), study desk lighting and RBR.

and now I have to make playing computer games an activity that is extinct. haih... study day and night non-stop. But I have to admit that I am finding this life acceptable if not fun. For those who took further maths before, you would know the joy of doing tutorials.. The joy that you feel after you crack your head hours to solve your question, then cannot get, then try for hours again the next day... and GOT THE ANSWER!!! WAHAHAHA... Hope I don go crazy over doing tutorials... Or rather, I don become even crazier.. hahaha..

Anyway, a bit sien, my social life was bare minimum, now is even worse.. dunno how to describe it.. Well, 2 years ain't that long.. I hope (those who have 3 years more, don kill me :(.... ) I work so hard, but then I know that first class honors is very far from me.. sigh... this is demoralising... the best I can hope for is second upper, but then it is hard to get also..

Hope everyone work hard ans survive uni life.

no air-cond? yes air-cond

When a tenant signed the contract to rent the room, the landlady said that there will not be any air cond provided. What she meant was that the air cond unit is in the room but she kept the remote away from the tenant.

However, the tenant still manage to use the air-cond. Who needs a remote control to on the air-cond? As long as the main switch of the air-cond is turned on by the landlady in her room, the smart tenant can use the air-cond too.. and.. for free.... How cool is that?

However, as the landlady does not stay in the uni often, the tenant is thinking of purchasing a cooler that uses ice and water to cool down the room. The downside to the cooler is that it only lasts for 4 hours. After that more ice and water need to be added. and it costs more than S$150. Is it a good deal? hm...

movie joke

This is a conversation between a mother and a daughter.

D: Mama, papa will not allow me to go and study the course
M: It is ok darling, I will go talk to him
D: It is no use mama, he keep thinking he is the head of the house and have right to make decision...
M: Now don't you worry, he may be the head of the house, but I am the neck. I can turn the head anyway I want

Morale of story: being head is not a good thing.