the most unpopular guy....

I started to give myself this nickname since near september last year. Amazing that I can get the most dishonorable title huh? sigh... but I really do feel that I am like that in class. When my classmates see me, they reply my 'hello', but their body action and eyes gave them away.. It seems that the msg they convey is that 'oh my, why on earth do I have to meet him of all the people?'

Another incident happened today which further solidify my claim to the title. It goes like this...

During a class today, tutor asked us to form groups of 4. So I turned and ask the person seating beside me if he has a group. then he said no and quickly turn away. Then, tutor started the lecture... So I decided to postpone my request to join him in a group.
After some time, tutor gave a break for us to stretch.... that guy went out to take a walk with others. When he came back, I asked him if I can join his group. Then he gave me this apologetic look and said he formed a group with 3 other guys already.
(let's call that guy A)

So I said to myself:'nvm, I'll try other group'
Then, I went and asked around and found out that there is another group with only 3 persons. So I asked them if I could join them and they agree. (one of them is B)
so I happily walked away thinking that I settled the problem of getting a group. (at that time was after class)
tick tock tick tock tick tock... (after 3 minutes)
'beep beep' (msg on phone)

content of msg:
Yo, B here. A's group just splitted and A was sent to join us. Since we are in the same group with him for the rest of our subject, It is more convenient for us to meet up. Sorry... We feel very bad about it..

the msg is just a notification. It just goes to show how insignificant I am.... What The HELL!!!!!!!!!!

After that I went to a lecture. A was there also. He still smile at me and try to strike a conversation with me, to which I responded like normal and with a smile...
Sigh.... humans can be so scary,fake,cruel, and do not keep their words......

Uni student...

You know.. I realized that in NTU, there are still many people who do not treat pursuing education seriously enough to take the initiative…

Well, there was a lecture on Econs today. It is supposed to start at 2.30pm. But somehow, the LT is still half full at that time. Well, I thought to myself.. maybe they are having class before this and the venue is far away (normally we had class or lecture in the south side, but the lecture today was on the north side). Around 2.40pm, more and more people stroll in.. one can start to hear voices saying ‘hello’, ‘where to seat ar?’, ‘why you don’t like Lido’,and more bla bla bla… All this while the lecturer was waiting for them to settle down in front. Finally, the lecturer have to ask them to keep quiet ( uni student….. sigh..).

And so, the lecture starts finally… As I was listening enthusiastically to the lecturer, I heard whispers, complaints and curses behind me..

A: walau.. I am lost lor///

B: I dunno what the fuck he is talking about

A (or is it B or C? I dunno. Didn’t turn to check out): I am going to die for econs la.. walau…

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Shouldn’t uni student be more proactive and read the lecture notes or at least glance through it before the lecture? (unless very confident)

Oh well, then I thought to myself.. I should thank these people because they are the ones who prevent me from getting too bad grade (Grades are awarded by ratio of the whole cohort)…haha…

charity

8^th Jan 2006. Sunday. It has been raining for the whole day today with no end in sight. Sigh… What a boring day. Cannot do anything much and the internet is not working yet. Not much computer games to play and I finished reading online stories that I downloaded. I am starting to feel lonely. I guess this always happens when I went back home for few weeks. Started to get use to home then have to come out and get use to another place. Sometimes, I really admire human’s ability to adapt to the surroundings. Haha…

Anyway, I went to an elderly home yesterday. (that is part of the reason why I didn’t go back to my house. Well, I knew about the home because I joined the group concerning elderly which is under Welfare Service club (nvm if you don’t understand,haha..) Well, only 3 people went to the home as other members went for a trip to Malaysia. Kind of weird to have just 3 persons going there when there are more then 40 elderly.. cos we only interacted with 2 elderly from one room… (all the other a gong a ma, sorry!!!!). Well, I was there for like 3 hours and we just chit chat with the elderly ( 2 a ma). They were so happy that we came and talk to them…haha… as we were happily chatting away… suddenly I noticed sth moving on the floor, so I picked it up. It appears to be an insect that live in the wooden frame of the bed and live of the elderly. Meaning, they actually sucked blood.. Then the elderly showed us to another bed where there are lots of dried blood and said those are caused by the insect. After that, I caught 4 more of them (one is full of blood).

The topics that we talked about ranged from Japanese war times to farming to rearing pigs, chicken, duck, how vegetables nowadays not so tasty, about fish that eats food completely processed by humans, the spirit of banana plant, dogs, egg, rain, the 4 seasons,…………………………………………………….. (now you have an idea of why we can talk for 3 hours… haha…)

One thing worth mentioning is that they laughed happily when we interact with them.. which is a good thing because they seldom have chance to go out. This is because elderly have some difficulties in movement and certainly all the stairs in Singapore is not helping. By interacting with them every week, I hope that they will be less bored. One other guy brought along some biscuits and gave them too. The smile on their face is well worth it.

However, I didn’t visit them during the holidays because I decided that I should visit my own parents and grandparents too. No point in being nice to other elderly while neglecting own grandparents and parents.

vegetarian

I came across this issue when I decided to go vegetarian. My parents objected to my decision again. For your information, I tried to turn vegetarian around 1 year ago. However, I have to abandon my decision because of objection from parents and also lack of vegetarian food in my hostel. Now, I turn vegetarian again. I hope that I can continue to be one. So far, I have not eaten meat for 4 days.

Well, my parents still think that I am not a vegetarian. They suggested that If I want to, I should just practice it on the 1^st and 15^th of every Chinese calendar month. I asked a fellow undergraduate who is a Buddhist about how he feels about being vegetarian for just 2 days in one month. He said that it is to practice discipline for 2 days. Which makes me wonder about the purpose of it. It is just like saying that I should be law abiding and be discipline for one day per week. For other days, I can do anything that I want. How does it sound? Ridiculous right?

Why would anyone want to be vegetarian anyway? Well, my reason may sound a bit funny. It starts after the I recover from sickness. After that, I start to notice a type of funny taste in fish, meat and egg which I don’t like. It is like rotten taste. How many will believe this? Well, my brother said that It is all in my mind. He said that I made myself believe that there is such a taste in meat.

But why would people want to be vegetarian? For Buddhist, they said that everything have a right to live. Hence, we should not take away that right from animals by killing them and eating them. For animal rights activists, they say that if people eat meat, there will be demand for it. As the breeding condition is degrading to the animals, it is just not right. I do not know about other interpretations..

Haha.. well, Hope my parents do not know about this blog…..Though I have to ponder over how I should act when I go home and my mum happily cooks all types of meat and fish to give me ‘nutrition’. Sigh…

(btw, this was typed when my room no internet connection)