Someone says they find it weird that I do not seem to be nervous of worried about getting a job when everyone else are scurrying to secure a place in the work force. I was puzzled and wonder why I should be worried. Come to think of it, I am quite indifferent to a lot of things.
I don't cry on funerals, I don't laugh heartily at jokes, I am not bothered much by many things. Why did it become like this? I guess I am just afraid of getting hurt. My heart has been broken before for various reasons. I supposed I set up a self protective barrier to enable my survival.
In my family, I was always the one who was more emotional, sensitive until I came to this country. People change. Oh yes. I changed. I nearly went nuts at one point of time. I guess I took some measures after that. Hopefully, I will reduce the chances of being hurt. Hopefully.....
