recently, I volunteered at Hospice Care Association. Although I have not come into contact with the patients. I had the chance to key in info of patients that were RIP (rest in peace). It makes me wonder about many things. What can we do to get a meaningful life? a life that when we are at our last moments, we can say that we have done sth and and contented? Is it just working and get money? Is it being filial? Is it to have a family with close relationship?
Recently I have been traveling a lot. I will follow my father whenever he goes to petaling jaya for meeting. Just went last week. I have to make use of every opportunity to go back and visit my grandfather. He is getting weaker by the day and everyone including my father is telling me that he will not last long. sigh... I have been fortunate so far. I had the chance to meet my grandparents, be it my father's side or my mother's side. though I seldom go and visit my mother's father who passed away 2 years ago. I am not going to make the same mistake again. My grandfather now very cute actually. haha. He will say that he don't want to eat lunch. But when me and grandmother sit down at table, he will want to join in for the sake of company.. Then he will have to eat sth. It saddens me to know that they are frequently looking forward to a visit by their children or grandchildren. My grandmother also expressed delight at my visit. She will tell everyone that she knows at kopitiam (and there are quite a few) that "cucu saya, cucu saya" or in cantonese. Eveytime I leave them I feel the pain when I see them suddenly become quiet when we are leaving.. sigh..
I am trying to make them happy whenever I can so that they have sth to hold on to during the period when nobody visit them. Hopefully it makes them feel better.
